Obedience is weird sometimes. Like, sometimes it’s easy. You see what to do, it makes sense, and you just… do it. But other times? It’s not easy at all. It’s confusing. It’s scary. And honestly, it can feel unfair.

I remember this one time I had to make a choice and I didn’t get it. Not at all. I was like, “God, are you serious? This doesn’t make sense.” 

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I had been offered an opportunity that seemed perfect on paper. Everyone around me who knew what I wanted was excited. I could see the benefits. But deep down, there was this quiet, stubborn voice that kept telling me to say no. I didn’t understand it at first. I thought I was being cautious or overthinking, even though there was really nothing to overthink. It seemed like a good deal. But the feeling wouldn’t go away.

It was hard. Part of me wanted to go ahead. It seemed like the “smart” choice. I worried about what people would think. I also had a bucket of what-ifs: What if this opportunity doesn’t present itself again? What if I am missing out on something so good?

What if?

What if?

But in the end, I listened. I said no, even though it didn’t make sense to me at the time. And you know what? Looking back, that opportunity wouldn’t have worked out well for me at all. What initially felt like a loss turned out to be protection, one I didn’t understand at the time.

That’s the thing with obedience that doesn’t make sense. It doesn’t come with instant answers. You don’t feel comfortable or clarity right away. Most times, you feel stretched or doubtful. But slowly, without you noticing, it changes you. It teaches you trust in ways that make sense only later.

So if you’re in that place right now, confused, frustrated, maybe a little scared, just know that it’s okay. Take a deep breath. Take the step(or don’t, that depends), even if you don’t understand it yet.

You don’t need to have it all figured out. Sometimes just making a decision is enough.

And maybe the strangest but most important part of all of this is realizing that God was already a step ahead, waiting for you to catch up.